Poor Intending Immigrant Girl

This story is about an intending immigrant Asian Girl who came in US; the intending immigrant has arrived in US to marry his fiancée, she has been in US for almost over 2 years now and still out of status. Her visa was expired and she is now considered as over-staying or in short illegal alien, she has been waiting for almost 2 years now since she was arrived in US and she don’t understand why until now her hubby doesn’t care about her security; she is very worried now for her situation because she feels vulnerable of what will be possibly happened to her in times of emergency as she is still very dependent to her hubby, if something were happen to her hubby she would not know where suppose to go to ask help since she is still an illegal alien and finding job could be very difficult to her then. She always thinks that way, what a poor girl, isn’t she? She understood very well that they don’t have enough money for adjustment and in fact, they are surviving financially but sometimes she doubts if it is really a main reason; we have a saying, there’s many ways if you want, and there’s many reason if you don’t’. Sometimes she compared herself to others; to others American who married an Asian girl that willing to borrow and loan money just to secure their wives because they are thinking and concern their wives security purposes. This intending immigrant Asian girl has no perfect happiness because of her situation; always worry, weary, sad, and scared of something bad would happen to her family ( she is always praying that hopefully nothing bad happens, because she doesn’t know where she goes). She always feels upset; she is upset everyday because she noticed that she was not prioritized by her hubby (her security was not prioritized by her hubby) her hubby prioritized spending for some other stuff instead, but she is still fighting that instinct not to believe, but sometimes she thinks that her hubby has some doubts or not really interested to make her a legal person in order to live normal, she thinks that there is really something wrong ( in the head of her hubby), but again she does not want to think and believe it, but sometimes she can’t control to think it which makes her to feel bad every now and then. Sometimes she thought that perhaps her hubby does not want her to stay in the US permanently so sometimes she told her hubby that she wants to go back to her home country but her hubby accused her instead that she was just using him. Very complicated isn’t it? Currently, she doesn’t really know what the real and main reason of his hubby. She doesn’t just understand why she brought in the US and left as illegal alien until now, and she really feels that her hubby seems has no interest in that matter and if so was just forced for a reason. That hurts! Very hurt! Poor Asian girl indeed.